Most wanted Songs for the year 2008

These are my Song Collection for the year 2008. Merry Christmas!:)

1.) Disturbia- Rihanna

2.)Take a bow- Rihanna

3.) Bye Bye- Mariah Carey

4) Always be my Baby- David Cook

5.)  Closer- NE-YO

6.) Womanizer- Britney SPears

7.) If  I  were a boy- beyonce

8.) Single Ladies- Beyonce

9.) Just Stand Up- Various Artist

10.) Bleeding Love- Leona Lewis

FAILURE, DEPRESSED

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melted to the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing

You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy,

maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing

You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

From: Cej ur lurve...hehe:)

Flattered yet NERVOUS!!

Got the letter from St.paul and ready for enrollment. I'm still stuck in the middle bout this.

May 7 is the releasing of NAT results and its making me so GRR..hehe.

BTW, I ain't love you.whahahaha

Amanos!

H! guys.. Its funny but true. My trip is watching movies on line via "Youtube".whaha

But its not an ordinary movie. Its my old time favorite "Bituing Walang Ningning"
starring: Ms. Sharon Cuneta as the Lead role and Ms. Cherie Gil as the antagonist. Love the romantic views.

Thsi movie is full of Taglish verbals. They often say it and dissolved it afterwards. What a line? Isn't it? I never expect to love this movie again despite of the time right now. Its about 1 in the morning and still waiting for the full dowload of this movie.

Here's one of my favorite line in the movie: (Check this out)

Ikaw ang basura,

noon hinahangaan kita dahil ang akala koy mabait ka,

ang akala koy tao kah, sinubaybayan kita, binantayan kita,

minahal kita lavinia, tiningala kita.

di ko akalain nang hamakin mo ko ,

at ng hiyain mo ko sa publiko.Mula noon isinumpa ko di lang kita papantayan lavinia lalamapasan pa kita!impokrita

AMANOS!

Still remember the remake of this as Sineserye presents by ABS-CBN? I hope your memory is not yet failed. Ms. Sarah Geronimo (My idol!haha(^_^)) plays the role of Dorina Pineda while Ms. Angelika Dela Cruz as Lavinia argueles. haha. Can't forget the ultimate concert they've done at the BIG DOME.hih.

So thats all!.tata.. mwah! gud morning!.

A farewell Blast!

Morning shines with thoughts of leaving and pain. Can’t imagine life without my friends and the fun they’ve shared. And the best of times enjoyed. I couldn’t heed bout the tears falling during graduation and the happiness filtered into fine contentment.

Now is the time to be true. College is the level of true battle, struggle and fear. The courses obtained will determine the field of your mind and talents. Measure your life with those of the new things to be discovered.

I now declare myself “HIDDEN BITE”.

TNX everybody! And I’ll Miss you! mwah!

IV-ARCHIMEDES 07-08

Superb!

Just went to iloilo to buy a POLO?.whaha.. funny yet a FAct!

I just went to iloilo to buy my recognition outfit. A pink polo. Isn't it a contrast? The best of the days are yet to come. Advance Congrats tou you cej.!mwah:)

[x] Less 3 weeks- bb HS :'( & :) [x]

I could still remember my graduation in elementary. My mood that time was so mixed. Many queries seeking for answers:

--What will be my next step?

--Am I prepared to enter HS?

--Am I emotionally and mentally prepared?

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-Do I need to continue or go back to the top and start again?

--Am I ready to accept my failure?

--Do I need the support of my classmates?

-- Do I need to show my talents?

-- Will my friends accept me for who I am?

-- Am I going to be a star in school?

As what I've expected 75% did come to an answer and the 25% remains in doubt.

Now the climax is over and the end is near. Hope my queries at the past has answers now. And since less than 3 weeks I'm a certified graduate of CNHS thus a beginning of a new world , new environment, new ME!..

This i promis to myself and to you guys!.. After the day I say GOODBYE is the start of saying Saying HELLO!....

The journey we've been through, those sleepless nights and unforgettable experiences were trully uncomparable. The things I would bring in college were the memories you've shared with me. The tears and the hopes we've felt.The competitions and the hardships. I hate to say this but the fact is really big."GOODBYE! :)

"Part of me laughs , part of me cries, part of me wants to questions WHy?"--CEJ

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! Archimedes 07-08



See you next 15 years!... You're all here in my heart!...........

Tense~Logic~Endeavor

Heared all the noise of the morning. My eyes are still close but could feel the beat of the wake. I dreamed about ANILAO.haha. but the students were my elementary fellas and also my elemntary mentors. Couldn't imagine of that. But I felt somethings bothering me and somethings not right.

Maybe beacause I was paranoid by that time. Paranoid of what will happen to me in my college. My friends often told me to be strong in getting the right answers on my problems. I sometimes regret that I belong "". But think that my journey is way too long for me to go back. So I must continue and try not to reminisce the bad stuff and go onwards.

Missing my HS life is the most precious memory I ever had. All the laughs and the cries. The non-stop singing and dancing. Those sleepless nights in making porjects. but then to consider not all ends in sorrow. The life of a Special SC student is really incomparable. I've tasted the bitterness of "NUMBERS" and the sweetness of "JOKES". haha. What a foolish line CEj!.

Those meetings and the group projects. The "copy-paste" technique. lol. The "QA" during tests and most of all "UP".hahahahaha.. I lurv ou adviser.

Next week will be the last week of Hardship!.. So now!.. gonna get off the pc and study. mwah!.. gud aftie!:)

HOPELESS.. I Pity you CEJ!.. :'(

I saw my grades and seems ok for me but the ranking is not. Yes, I did expect to be on the

bottom but imagine 5 out 34 are not qualified for the honor list?.. It is possible but by heart

really aches that time. I can feel the pain my mother is feeling. The years she've done for me

and it only turned out into nothing. I sometimes question myself " Do I deserve all of these?"

I couldn't phatom that I will be left on my seat on my Graduation day. I actually plan not to

attend on that specail day but to think that its the last. No way! CEJ!.. Its just the beginning of a

new world. College is really fast approaching Cej. Never mind that "Medal".haha. Just stand and

face the new world of you own. trust your self and try not to go back to the "nightmares" at the

past. Nevertheless, you mom!. Never forget the advises she is telling you. At times you don't

eant to listen to her its just a matter of temperance my dear self. Remember that you can't be

like that wothout your mother.Don't get tired of loving and cherishing the of "oral-recitation" of

your mom. Just think that those heart-melting words are just an "Icing on the cake". Think

positive Cej. Now, here's a song that would ease the pain you are keeping inside.

Title: Do I Trust You Lord

Sometimes my little heart can't understand

What’s in Your will what's in Your plan

So many times I'm tempted to ask You why

But I can never forget it for long

Lord what You do could not be wrong

So I believe You even when I must cry

Chorus:

Do I trust You Lord does the robin sing

Do I trust You Lord does it rain in Spring

You can see my heart You can read my mind

And You've got to know I would rather die

Than to lose my faith in the One I love

Do I trust You Lord

I know the answers I've given them all

But suddenly now I feel so small

Shaken down to the cavity in my soulI know the doctrine and theology

But right now they don't mean much to me

This time there's only one thing I've got to know

Chorus 2:

Do I trust You Lord does the river flow

Do I trust You Lord does the North wind blow

You can see my heart You can read my mind

And You've got to know I would rather die

Than to lose my faith in the One I love

Do I trust You Lord

Chorus 3 :

I will trust You Lord when I don't know why

I will trust You Lord til the day I die

I will trust You Lord when I'm blind with pain

You were God before and You'll never change

Do I trust You,

do I trust You,

do I trust YouI

will trust You,

I will trust You Lord

I will trust You Lord

Regionals-event!.

-->Last Feb. 14 to 17 a phenomena happened. It broke the silence of ANILAO. Negros, Iloilo, Antique, Aklan,


Guimaras, Capiz were there to witness the 1st ReGIONAL YES-O CONGRESS. Many really enjoyed the stay.


Every morning you should wake-up early to take the first morning crystal that glows theough out the day. The


nature-themed event really caught the environmental spirit of the students and the teachers. The intelligent


speakers whom sharec their knowledge bout the Green , Blue and Brown environment. The never-ending "ice-


breakers" resolve my inheritance. Daily meal comprises of A cup of Rice, veges , chicken or pork releaves my



hunger. The teachers and the facis cooperate with each other. The last day was so quick. Capiz National High



School bagged the Over-all contest. A fine day to start and a cool night to end. :]

~I Drove All Night~

"I woke up this morning late. No feeling doubt for today’s drama. Making a blend of coffee made me fine. Sitting in a rattan sofa while watching TV cools me off, hearing songs from the radio also added the romantic ambiance. "

A poem of LOVE:
Are We Still Friends?

I could have held you all night long,I could have laid next to you forever,But then I know tomorrow soon would come,And still we couldn't be together . . .

I went against what my head was saying,and followed my heart through,And instead of quitting while I was ahead,I started falling in love with you

We had so much fun together,the memories we made so great,all those nights laughing and smiling,staying up so late.

As the snow falls on the sidewalks,I know this too will pass,for feelings are like the seasons changing,and one season never lasts.

So, I know this must stop now,and tomorrow soon will come,as we walk away and never look back,as our warm feelings become numb.

Concert of the hearts

An advance Valentine special was given to me and my friends as we've watched the concert of Jed Madela at the our Gymnasium. The ambiance was quite scientific with most of the doctors and the member of the Philippine Diabetes Association- Capiz Chapter. The night was so gloomy but never the eagerness of the fans. The beaming spotlights overflowing the atmosphere, the color flooded cars in the parking lot and the people entering the access made a terrific significance in a concert.

The relaxing songs filled the emptiness of the gym and the chattering people were then added. The momentum of the watchers was caught by the gradual dimming of the atmosphere. The emcee began to introduce the doxology given by doctor and followed by the singing of the Pambansang awit afterwards. The next thing I saw was the sparkling bright lights over the stage and then there I saw Jed MADELA. He was really white and really smooth. You can feel his voice as he starts singing. His romantic’s songs filled the air. Every track his singing was really no waste of time.

It was really a very performance I’ve seen and the most promising singer came to our province. The night I think was really complete. I saw her and hope she saw me also. We are in a distance sit.

The blooming chatters were really great and indeed a good supporter. We have cheered to Jed. The last song were really so high. Imagine Jed gave it all for us. I can never and will never forget this night. Night Jess! Its 1 in the morning!. :P. J

~~~Chain reaction~~~

Hot and Blurry! That is how I define my day today. The smell of the cooked-egg in morning and the running water from the faucet makes me ill. The recapitulated ohm of my sister and the overwhelming reminders of my mom relieve and ease the anxiety I am feeling.

(Version)

Cherry is one of my luckiest friends. She wants me to be happy all the time. She is actually my confidant. At times, trouble arouses, she is always there blocking my chimney to gust. The ambiance diverged when cherry interrupted the momentum. The lousy heat of the sun turns into a calm breeze of silent noise.

OWEsome..

Last week was the busiest week ever. The time to practice, the deadline of activities ,etc. That week was eventually the last week of January. And now the second month came and really in a hurry. The lessons should be fast forward and the topis should absorb in your mind so quickly cuz if not your out in the cycle.Past days were quite enjoying, besides the hardships me and my classm8s been through ,the time and effort consumed at last the superb prize were able to achieve. whahhaa.. How I love my Hyskul Lyf..:)

Praise ALLAH!!!!

It was December when we won the “Speech choir” contest and the “Poetry in motion.” The pressure that we all gave, the support of our parents and the determination that we have given were about to gain its fruit. The never-ending practices, the laughs and the jokes between the practice are about to end. The bottom line is- the DIVISION ENGLISH SHOWCASE (Secondary level) held at DADIVAS GYM at Panit-an CAPIZ. Most of the secondary public schools will participate and the ultimate goal is to get the crown from CAPIZ NATIONAL HIGH SCHOOL. Our school is now at the Hall of Fame regarding this category since last year we also won the top spot.

Tomorrow will be the finals of the event. My heart really trembles. It is not our gym, our people, our territory and most of all it is not the time to be lax. The pressure is on us on defending the crown. The contenders would be tough. The costumes would be so “bongasious”. HOPE to defend it... love you cej!.

COLLEGE 101.....SOON~~~~

Q: Should I room with my BEST RIEND from HIGH SCHOOL?

A: Probably NOT. I’ve known beautiful friendships to break up that way. In the first places, just because you’ve confined every secret since freshmen, there’s no guarantee that being together full-time won’t grow tiresome. You can get to know eah other too well. And the tings you’ve admired most about that person can soon be eclipsed by mannerisms or habits that make you feel you’re about to lose your mind if tey occur just one more time! You never knew, for instance, that she gets her shiny teeth by brushing noisily for about ten minutes at a time, four times a day, while standing in front of the TV screen or that every night after he turns out the light, he methodically cracks through each knuckle—all twenty of them.

Obviously many best friends from high school have become college roommates and adjusted nicely together, keeping both friendship and roommate reltionship intact. In case, it is not necessarily true that roommates have to be best friends. Being on good terms is possible without sharing the same interests----or the same high school history.

How are you going tp make new friends? Your freshmen year is the best opportunity you’ll have to meet the other also new people on your campus. Don’t let that time slip past you. You and the best friend may not grow and change and accept college life at the same tempo.

Desperate to be ONE~~~~~~.. :'(

All the words I've said last sunday was then trashed. Our Dept. Head called me and said that I will join the Sayawit for the YES-O congress this coming February. I was at the state of confusion that time. Am I going to agree? or Am I going to refuse?. Ugh!. I never tried to think deeper and at that instant. I said "YES Ma'am". After that moment, I think the resposnse of my classmateswould be divided into negative and So-Negative. I really promised not to join the sciyawit if ever I will be told to. I never intend to offend my classmates but its just a case- to- case basis. There were factors considered. But then as I've watched the scenario and tried to understand. They have the reason to be angry at me becasue at the first place, I was the one who really convince them for the BOYCOT. Second, I was the one that leads the troupe to be at the top and then for that I will turn them down, Third, the trust and the honor that my classmates were giving me would just fade away if Im going to follow the command.

Now, the problems were gradually given each an answer. The sawayit was finalized that I will not join nor Janine. But my desire was to go there and really want to be in that event. I really want to ba a facilitator at the first place and was really an option If ever we will not win in the contest. The most of all I want to be there to be recognized again!. Im so desperate to tell this matter in my blog. Sorry!.. hihhi.. Just praying to be the ONE~~~~~....CEJ.. 1:00 am...mwah!

DOING your BEST is BETTER than BEING the BEST!

The 2008 YES-OCongress has come to an end. The ending was fine and quite memorable especially to me and the rest of my classmates since it was the first and the last congress attented. The rules from the regionals were implemented. The competition of the teams were so tight especially the Seniors and the Juniors. The highlights of the event were distributed on the 1st, 2nd and the 3rd night . The choral was on the 1st night where our group performed but sad to say we didn't got the 1st place nor 3rd place. The most controversial was the Sciyawit. The concept were all about the environment. The pioneer of genres of music came from us thats's why the other team were so safe and very strict in practicing. The result that night was very boombastic. The crowd didn't expect the results. Us as the most active dance troupe of our department won the 2nd place and that's really means alot for me. Well, hope to a the facilitator in the regionals. Juk2x..^_^... Gudluck guys for the IPSF National and the BIOTA. gonna Sleep!.

YES-O Congress 08..

Paru rapap..Hahaa.. Ei Cej!. The time has come to be the "B" among the "b". The days past were so cold for me.dada. After those Sleepless nights, the time has come to end the "dubdub". I'm gonna take it as a Challenge to win the battle of the "B". Being a Dance Monarch, the pressure was doubled for about an hour ago. The singers failed to get the top spot and the rival team really made it. Tomorrow night will be the night. May GOD bless us tomorrow. And gave justice to the event. GUDLUCK CEJ and troupe... mwah.. 11:56 pm na!.... gonna do the rest.!.!.!.!>

ENOUGH is ENOUGH!...

Dear Jess,

I know you are ugly and fat. You’re not that ambitious enough like your other classmates. You are just satisfied on what you have in life. You don’t want to think beyond an idea. You never dare your self to be one of them. You are so ridiculous Jess. You are good to them, but are you thinking that they are just using you?

It’s an insult for me that I am a threat to Abigail. I really took it badly. They really made me felt that I should not belong to IV-ARCHIMEDES. You know Jess sometimes, I want to have more enemies that friends. I want to cry , but I know that Life's like this. I always contemplate that the problems I’m into is easier than the following problems that I may encounter in the mere future.

The initials that I’m about to mention in this post were that persons whom affects me the last few days.

C. M. D- She always humiliates me in front of my classmates. She often calls me “ay BUNDOL”.

>Mae< - even I laugh at her jokes bout me. It hurts me so much. >RNIS<- She is my friend but sometimes her ZUMA irritates me. >SBSb<- She really irritates me with those eyes of her. She always say “ eew” and that sucks! >CCM<- She is so plastic. She told me that Im SO” maalam”. K lang xa?


Peace out guys!. Its my blog! Liberty for my post...

The tension flows.

It is not a fine day for me right now. For all the tension I felt this day that could feel my liver trembling and by abnormal heart-beat. The only thing that affects me most was the WVSU admission test 2008. I was caught in the middle by my thoughts. All the What if has been mentioned. The terrifying part is that I’m a pessimistic kind of person. I easily get attention. OMG! Hope to pass it! Good luck jess.

Song Linguists..

I woke up this morning late and lazy. The color of my room makes me stayed on my bed. I don’t know what my position in bed is. But all I know is that my heart is not working that time. The ambiance of the room made me so elaborative that time. There were questions on my mind pending for answers. Is my heart ready to love again? Am I worth enough to lover her? Ugh! Hate my self. Then suddenly my mother called my name twice before I answered. I ran down the stairs and heard music from the radio. My attention was caught by the music playing and made fully conscious. I remember my friend Steffany sang “Where do broken hearts go” yesterday. And since my sis was searching I told her to go to “youtube” and key in the song. As the song is playing, I reminisce the ups and downs of my life. By the time that I get engaged with my studies the sincerity evolved in me.

I grabbed my cell phone and texted my father if he could buy me a Whitney Houston album entitled “The Ultimate Collection”. It was the thing that I told my father that if he could only buy but then he replied that I will tell my mom that she will by for me the album I want and my father will pay her. I was really happy that time. Of all the things I want that I am telling my father that thing was really granted although it is just an ambush want.

A lot more.. HaPnEss

It is so fascinating watching a choral sang on stage and just a spectator on the crowd cheering for whom you think will win. But it’s not what I’m going to create this time its bout the leadership training in Panit-an, Capiz this morning. Dyna and some of the officers went there as early as 7 am, but I, Chamy and Jea stayed at school for the test in physics and go to the camp after the review in DOST.

I really want to practice on our speech choir for the Division. Hihihihi. And then after the lunch time a was really irritated of an adviser in front of me she’s so ridiculous all the comments, criticisms and even saying rebounded words.. Ugh! I really hate that bitch. Going back to the story, well after a few words given by the first speaker in the plenary session in the aftie then I’ve decided to go since it is 2 pm already and the practice for the speech choir is already starting. There were butterflies in my stomach by that time. The car stops at the terminal and just a snap I’ve called a tricycle and said “Manong Capiz High Sa babaw” then he agreed. By the time we got at skul I’d hurried up down into the gym and Boom! That 2nd practice was over and hoping there’s still more.

Our teacher went to the table tennis and checked our Unit test in English and I was so nervous to know my score and many had passed 47 I think will is the highest score that time . It was my turn. I don’t know what to do. I just smile and fooling others and hope I will not get a score of 40 and below. And really God answered my prayer. I only got 4 mistakes out of 50 items and my gas I got a score of 46 out of 50. It was not bad really. I felt lifted by the very earth of my joy. And then after several practices we adjourned the practice. After listening to my very friend Tipang (Our Filipino poet, the general quizzer) singing “Where do broken hearts go” by Whitney Houston I was inspired posing this here.

The BIg DaY...

It is indeed a big day to me for just surfing the net, watching movies in YOUTUBE, searching pipz via friendster, etc. We had so much fun in sterling in searching for our "Gyroscope". We'll edoing our Chemistry work is kinda hrd for us. Only the four of us in a 7 member group. Damn! baby, huh?.. Well thats for now it's already 12:30 in the morning and got a hot long day tom.. hihih.. and waiting for a cold war?.juk2c.. only for that person only my dear!.. nanay2z

Old pucks to a GoOd ReAdeR

After buns of talking, we decided to go gai and watch movie. Tons of laughter im searching a 5

pesos to 10 pesos worth of book...lol :).. I bought a 15 pesos worth of book, "Death by Diet"- cuz

Im so fat na ka c eh!.. "College 101"- since it's 3 omths off to college so I decided to bought a

guide book for a freshmen.whoah!.. And bout that I gave a gift to

Steffany (Our filipino "makata" )and an Award-winning writer of our time. Naks! I gave her a

book on how to publish stories in a book. That's a dream for tipang since she loves making

stories and from it she can made it to her fullest dream and by that she could really be one of

the finest writers of all time. That's make her lyf more sensible, and the art to success.

Next, was my half-sister, Kristelie Mae Tilla-in. She call me "sis" when we are still in freshmen

that she asked me if she could can call me sis and I approved it..hihihi.. Then I bought her a

"Traveler guide for writers". She is our "english linguist", "Walking dictionary", and sometimes

the "Thinkablejoker". luv ya sis.. hihlove this dday.. NO ClASS TOM>>!!!!!!!!!!!!

Are you thinking what I'm thinking?... There are 34 medallions ..whahahhahaha